I dont know how else to put this

It's taken me so long to do this

I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight

My muscles feel like a malee

My bodys curled in a u shape

I put on my best but i'm still afraid

Propered up by lies with promises

Saving my place as lifes forgets

Maybe it's time i saw the world

I'm only here for a while

But patience is not my style

And i'm so tired, I gotta go

What am I suppose to want now?

What am I suppose to do?

Did you really think i wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you

Tell me I could have it all

I'm still tired to care and I gotta go

I get to go home in one week

But I leaving home in three weeks

They throw me a bone just to pick me dry

I'm following suit and directions

I crawl up inside for protection

i'm told what to do and I don't know why

i'm over existing in limbo

i'm over the myths and placebos

I don't really mind if I just fade away