I don't even know myself at all
I thought I would be happy by now
But the more I try to push it
I realize gotta let go of control
Gotta let it happen, so let it happen.
It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing
Every night I try my best to dream
'Tomorrow makes it better'
I wake up to the cold reality
That not a thing is changed
And the salt in my wounds
Isn't burning anymore that it used to
It's not that I don't feel the pain
It's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore
And the blood in these veins
Isn't pumping any less than it ever has
And that's the hope I have
The only thing I know is keeping me alive
